If I’m Being Honest”

 

Chorus

If I’m really being honest, really being honest 

I guess first I have to start being honest with myself

If I’m really being honest, really being honest

I never really meant to hurt no one, but I did 

 

V/1

If I’m really being honest here

I fell so far like a comet came thru the atmosphere

Moving fast & blurry

I tried to make it clear

Seen everyone that hurt me

Look at me thru my mirror

 

So I tried to hide it

Ended up feeling divided

Every place that I went 

It felt like I’m living two lives

 

Found myself racing back

Erasing roads off the path

Picking up old bad habits

Had all my vices in a basket 

 

Reality’s a mirage

Wish I could light it up 

like neon lights but it’s camouflaged  

 

Locked in these invisible chains

The only thing holding me back 

Is my own doubt in my brain 

 

If I’m being honest, I’m scared to death 

To blow up doing music 

& Lose my time with my kids I get 

 

Now that I’ve gone through all this 

The one thing left 

For me to do is be honest 

100 with every breath

 

Chorus

If I’m really being honest, really being honest 

I guess first I have to start being honest with myself

If I’m really being honest, really being honest

I never really meant to hurt no one, but I did 

 

V/2

I'm sorry I've been distant

Sorry that it's makes me act so different 

Sorry I’ve been breaking my commitment 

Sorry I say sorry like I think it's gonna fix it

I cross my heart and promise 

That it never was my intent 

 

But some days, tides change

And everything familiar starts to seem so strange 

And everything that filled ya up

Begins to drain

But you just keep on moving 

Like it's still the same 

 

Imagining myself now, looking in that mirror

I've put you thru hell somehow, it only brought you nearer 

Guess you ain't afraid of flames 

Outlining my halo

Every chance I have to pull you closer, I just let go

 

I swear I ain't no angel

I've worn a couple devil horns 

For my lows I’m thankful

It Ripens up my rotten core 

 

I’m finally admitting it

Sometimes I start an all out war 

And never warn before I roar

And it’s not what you’re asking for 

 

Cuz that part is the hardest 

Admitting I was heartless 

Convincing me that I'm the one

Who needs to chill regardless

 

Convincing me that I’m the one who needs to build thru all this 

My soul was always starving 

In the parts I’m feeding garbage 

 

You can’t grow a family tree

If you’re killing the garden 

If you can’t even pull the weeds

How can you start it?

 

I'm saying Im not unaware

Of the anger that I've harnessed 

I just hope I can polish up the moments that I've tarnished 

 

I’m just being honest